Still

Haha... I'm still waiting for something that won't ever happen... I've been in such a lively mood for a while, why not? Playing tennis is fun. Playing violin can be fun. Studying history and chemistry can be fun. Talking to new people is fun. Cooking for old friends is fun.

But... I realized just now that I should give up on you... You aren't going to suddenly pop up and talk to me ever again... I can not go up and talk to you ever again... Most importantly, we will never be together again...

It won't stop me from continuing to live the life I love though... I guess I'm just disappointed at this false illusion I've created for myself^^