Food for Thought

Today, my best friend Dragon came over and we made 葱油饼, or "green onion pancake" which was quite fun.

God I love food... Here are some of the best foods EVER in my humble opinion - taste and health. If I could eat them everyday, I would. And I always have so much fun cooking with these as the main stars^^

1. Avocadoes - I dunno why, I prefer eating them raw with absolutely nothing in it. Just scoop them out from the halves into a small bowl, mash them up, and maybe put a bit of lemon if I'm not too lazy... haha. If I want to make homemade guacamole (my weird Chinese style), I add lemon juice, Japanese mayonnaise, salt, and just a drop or two of Siriachi sauce.
2. Yogurt - Because I hate milk, I try to eat yogurt every morning for my daily calcium intake. Greek yogurt is the best. I just eat plain, add a bit of honey, and maybe a few berries if I'm not too lazy.
3. Salmon - Maybe it's a Buddhist thing I'm too accustomed to, but I really dislike red meat. I prefer fish and chicken, and salmon is the best fish (in my opinion). I like to grill it with some parmesan cheese on top... It's good.
4. Green Tea - Very Chinese, I guess, but I drink it on all my lazy days, curled up in bed and watching a movie or reading a good book. Never drink "flavored" green tea or from these packets, they taste so... much like crap. Artificial crap. The real stuff lies in these dried out bits, they have a really nice and strong flavor :)

Maybe

I don't wanna be the one to say goodbye
But I will...
I don't wanna sit on the pavement while you fly
But I will...

'Cause maybe in the future
You're gonna come back around
The only way to really know is to really let it go...
Maybe you're gonna come back to me

I don't wanna be the first to let it go
But I know...
If you have the last hands that I want to hold
Then I know I've got to let them go

But I'm gonna wash away everything till you come home to me.
-Ingrid Michaelson

Old Classic Movies

These movies are on my to-watch list... I've always had a thing for classic books, so now I'm going to try classic movies.

• Gone with the Wind
• Casablanca
• Roman Holiday
• East of Eden
• Rebel Without a Cause
• Giant
• Breakfast at Tiffany's
• Charade
• My Fair Lady
• The Breakfast Club
  

These are the movies I haven't seen, so Star Wars will not be on there.

Orchestra Banquet

^Haha, I was trying to match K's height...

Taking silly pictures with my old dhost... ^^I'm going on a sushi date with him tonight. It should be fun! And right after, watching The Avengers with Rudester, Ms, and Lohner. Yay~!

The senior biography we had to write for ourselves really got me thinking about the future... where I see myself in 10 years.

"In ten years, Erin sees herself as a successful doctor working with both Western and Eastern medicines, perhaps even producing her own line of pharmaceuticals and health care products, married to a man as rich as herself, no kids."

Purederm's Raspberry Collagen Mask

 ^With mask on, creepy~

^After taking off the mask~

I would highly recommend this!! It smells so nice, just like raspberries, and has such a refreshing feel to it too... There is plenty of essence on the mask, and the shape is quite versatile, typical Asian-style face masks meant to suit any shape, especially for round faces.

After peeling off the mask, I just lightly rinsed off - no need to scrub at all, the essence is so light and not very sticky once you put a bit of water on. My skin felt so soft and smooth afterwards.

This is some good stuff right here. I just happened to come across it at the local Korean mart, but from now on, I'm going to try more of Purederm's products!

Senior Walk and Picnic

Senior walk pictures might come later~! Hawaiian Falls was so much fun, I really enjoyed it^^ I'm cherishing all the last moments with my high school classmates that I can. The truth is, I don't really care for most of them, but since this will be the last time I ever interact with them, what possible reason would there be for us to go our own separate ways on a bad note? Better to just have fun while we can!

Spring Concert

^The Koreans on top, then Dragon and me

My best friend and I!!

 

Last orchestra concert of the year... I am really appreciative of what orchestra has done for me, but at the same time, I am so relieved to finally let it go. My interest in the violin has been waning for such a long time, and now it's just been a burden.

After the spring concert, I ended up eating out with a couple of friends in a Chinese buffet. I was a little disappointed because I was hoping to meet up with my dhost instead, but I never saw him at the concert.

Senior Prom 2011

It was great!! First, the girls prepared together - P drew on my eyeliner, winging it out, and we helped each other out with falsies (it was our first time putting them on). Then we did our hair. After a reserved dinner at The Ranch and pictures, we just danced and had fun. And then karaoked with the Koreans^^

^Roast Chicken Fettucine!! Light cream sauce, fresh herbs, wild mushrooms, parmesan cheese, spinach, and tomatoes.

A New Life

Today's conversation really confused me... but I think I'll figure it all out as I go along.

YH: The reason why I fell for you in the first place wasn't because you fooled me into thinking you were cute... I just liked you, everything about you.
Me: No, it doesn't work that way... From the moment I saw you, I knew I liked you way too much, it was out of control, not something I could handle... I was the one who liked you, every bit of you, instantly. I was the one who wanted to match up to you but never could.
YH: You never failed me at all! I don't know what you're talking about... The only one you're failing is yourself.

This will probably be the last conversation with him that I ever recall back on... I just... I want to be genuinely me again.

A long time ago, I spoke of having two lives, two worlds: one in Qingdao, where I was the cute and spunky little sister, and another in Irving, where I was the hardworking student. I don't want to feel split apart anymore... I just want to be whole again.

No more pretending to be the girl everyone likes, no more trying too hard to get on the path to success... I loved him so much, I think he was the only one I truly wanted to myself, but then again, I love myself so much more.

I want to move on... not just from our old bonds, but also from the beliefs and principles he transferred to me. I don't care enough to hide my appearance or lack of talents anymore. What comes will come, and I'll face it. I will rise up in my own quiet way, and I'll gain respect however I want.

Maybe one day somebody or something will be able to make me forget everything, and I will be so grateful.

Strange Dreams

Dream #1:
YH and I were sitting on the bench at the canal together. We were reunited, and so were updating each other about little tidbits in our lives.

His mother was still alive, and I told him that I missed her and was glad to hear that. Then I got a text message from QL, which made me laugh. YH asked about it, and I showed him the message, telling him why it was funny and who QL was.

YH's attitude suddenly got a little cold. I had been leaning on his arm before, but then he got up and shook me off, saying that he had to go somewhere.

I stood up too, but just watched him as he was leaving because I didn't know what to say... and then I felt so bad that I started crying even though I knew it was pathetic, and I told him not to go. I said that he had gotten the wrong idea, that QL was not as important as he was to me, but that made him so angry that he actually came back just to confront me.

It was scary because it was the first time I had ever kissed someone in my dreams... and also because he was asking me so many questions about QL that when I woke up, I later wondered if I actually did like him. Even though I'm pretty sure I don't.

Dream #2:
MS, Dragon, Jelly, and I were having a sleepover. For some odd reason, MS brought her pet crab and it got lost somewhere. So we all rummaged through the room, trying to find it.

I finally started clearing out the space underneath the bed, and then I found an ugly blue thing with no legs. MS squealed, grabbed it, and started washing it in the bathroom. When she came back, the crab was now red, as if it was cooked, but still had no legs.

She then started blaming me, saying it was my fault that the crab was electrified by an outlet... Dragon was on my side, but Jelly was with MS, and we all got into a fight over it, yelling at each other.

These two were both unpleasant dreams...